August 16 2012
Fear of Losing My Joy
A couple of weeks ago, I realized I wasn’t experiencing the same level of joy and lightheartedness that I had when Kate was here on the planet. I started to worry I wouldn’t be able to access these qualities of myself without her. I began missing her more deeply.
Then realized that I was actually missing my self.
It was a relief to discover the truth beneath my concerns: that which Kate helped bring out in me are actually aspects of ME, and so they cannot disappear. And I can choose to cultivate them any time.
(Apologies for the unsteady camera on this one. Perhaps it indicates the importance of finding stability within myself).